I am part of a bunch of classes this year, but the one I’m most active in is Effy Wild’s Moonshine class, where we cycle with the moon each month.
The class itself, by Effy’s own admission, has become something altogether larger than what she had originally thought. And well, that’s super cool.
In it, we are art witches doing our work.
It is a powerful course. And I love it. It has showed me real magic, over and over. And as I begin to trust myself more and more, I see magic everywhere. And life is getting sweeter for it.
We set intentions around what we’d like to get going for the month on the new moon. And my vow in the beginning of February was to eat with intention. I noticed I had been binge eating. This isn’t a new thing for me. Binge eating is a way I deal with feelings, anxiety and depression.
Currently, though, I’m on an eating plan that is extremely healthy for me. So my bingeing has changed...but I’m still overeating. And it’s something that is important for me to change if I want to continue to see the results that I’ve seen in the last 4 months (I’ve lost 42 pounds so far).
So I felt if I made eating a sacred act that perhaps things would change.
In retrospect, it may have been a good idea for me to narrow down the vow a bit more toward a measurable goal.
I’m noticing that during this cycle, I was more conscious while eating, even while bingeing. And sometimes I would choose to stop the binge or not binge at all. And sometimes, I would say ‘fuck it’ and keep eating. But that choice was there. And I’m noticing. Not judging. Not feeling like a failure. Just noticing. It’s good information for me to have.
And it’s a practice, right? This eating better things for my body. She’s happier with what I’m eating now and how I’m eating. I have more energy. I’m not as tired all the time. I don’t get sick as much as I used to.
The things I was bingeing on were plan-approved items like low-fat cheese sticks and sugar-free jello, rather than a pint of Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey. But the plan only approves 1 of the snacks and I’d have 3 or 4. This is probably why I didn’t get too far off track with losing weight. But my results were slow because of that extra, unconscious eating.
So...no major earth-shaking revelations around this vow. But enough of a change for me to take note and keep changing things.
I’m doing my research for the new moon on March 6th and I’ll see if eating well will work with the energies for this one too, or if I can focus on another goal while taking what I’ve learned and continue.
I like this noticing.
Here’s the piece I did around my new moon vow in February.